when you are too scared...

"till now i'm still thinking what will happen to me if that aunty didn't manage to catch me from fall down on the street while i'm rushing to the mall to meet someone....."

yesterday, i went to the mall because i promise to meet someone over there. thinking that i'm gonna be late so i decide to take monorail and stop at chow kit station instead of go to titiwangsa and change to star lrt.

to be honest, after about a decade live in kuala lumpur yesterday was my first time been there alone. i have never been at chow kit road before except on early of this year went there to meet a friend for a while only. i know it's sounds weird but it's true. usually just passed by there only by car. to walk around on the street the answer is NO. NEVER ... that was because all the while i heard only bad things about chow kit road. so that really enough to make me scared to go there. but because of i already late so i dare myself to use that way.

even i felt so unsecured but i try to focus on my intention. with high heels i walked straight to the mall (actually i just guess the way because i not really sure which way should i take. i used the building as my landmark) walk faster than usual to ensure i will come out from that area as soon as possible. i believed when you are too scared normally you will only focus on what you should do and forget about other things. so do i. i'm too scared (1) because i already late and (2) never walked down to chow kit road before. I walked too fast and about 100m to reach at the mall suddenly i lost my self balance and nearly fall down on the street when i reached at the other road side. i am so lucky there was one aunty who stand there manage to catch me from fall down. if not, i really can't imagine what will happen to me yesterday. i nearly been hit by the motorcycle that time. thanx to god for sending me that aunty to save me. i felt a bit pain on my ankle that time but i just continue to walk. frankly speaking, my tears nearly drop because i'm so scared.

finally i reached at the mall but I didn't manage to meet that person... i was late....

i went to one corner and sat there... alone... rain was falling down in my heart...
thinking back on what had happened teach me a lot of things. i learn to do a very wise decision on limited times. i learn new way that i never thought i will do it last time. i learn to believe in myself that i can do things that i never do before... and the most important i learn to appreciate what i had...

personally i wanted to say lots of thanx and loves to a few people who was there for me yesterday...i didn't manage to say it personally to them....
1) to you
2) that aunty who be my savier
3) my beloved housemate amtaz n baiz who were willing to come and pick me and listening to my tears
4) cik suad dearest

btw..i totally in love with this song...

'Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now
Wish right now, wish right now...'

TTYL